Random Song of the Day - Axium - Creep

Of course the very first post of my Random Song of the Day just HAD to be a song related to David Cook. Figures. *L*

So. Creep cover, sung by David Cook in his Axium days.

Here. Have some of it.



This song is part of one of Axium's live recording, Alive in Tulsa @ The Venue, circa 2004.

I still remember when I heard that song for the first time. I thought Cook was emulating Thom Yorke of Radiohead way too much. But I kept listening and listening and listening. And it really grew on me. Fair to say I absolutely adore Cook's voice; I just had to remind myself that this was recorded when the guy was 22 years old. His voice has changed and matured since that time. Still, I love the bits where Cook's true voice comes out, rather than his imitation of Chris Cornell/Thom Yorke.

All in all, one of the better Creep cover I've heard. I still prefer Lukas Rossi version better, but David's rank way up there.

David Cook - Axium - The Story Thus Far - Lyrics

The Story Thus Far ~ Axium ~ 2004





Callout

This is a callout
I just wanted to let you know
It's off with a fallout
And it's time for me to go
It's time for me to go

I need a chance to speak
'Cuz I know what's meant for me
And I couldn't care less
What you do with yours--this moment's mine

This is a callout
I just wanted to let you know
It's off with a fallout
And it's time for me to go
It's time for me to go

Breakdown these pieces for me
My concentration's ill at ease
And I couldn't care less
Your fifteen's up, it's my turn now

This is a callout
I just wanted to let you know
It's off with a fallout
And it's time for me to go

This is a callout
It's off with a fallout
This is a callout
I just wanted to let you know
It's off with a fallout
And it's time for me to go


AC

You must understand I’d take your place in a heartbeat
You can’t comprehend what watching you does to me
I cant comprehend the kinds of feelings inside of me
You must understand that this is all so new to me

Please know I love you and I miss you every way
I’m coming to grips with what you you deal with everyday
You’re always on my mind

I can’t seem to find my own sense of disregard
Lord knows I’m hurting for you
I feel so benign not having control of this
But I’m here through your malignancy

Please know I love you and I miss you every way
I’m coming to grips with what you you deal with everyday
You’re always on my mind

Please know I love you and I miss you every way
I’m coming to grips with what you you deal with everyday
You’re always on my mind

Please know I love you and I miss you every way
I’m coming to grips with what you you deal with everyday
You’re always on my mind



Pecking Order

Clip my wings before I fly, clip my wings so I can die
Pressed against the dirt, you can't feel my hurt
Watch your shadow paint the sky as I follow in my mind
Forever falling short
Ttoo many thoughts to sort

Flat on my face
Can't plead my case (I still need my s p a c e)
But someday, I'll be on top
High above you all
In spite of my history, this is me
I've got no farther left to fall

Shoot me down, I'm in my prime
Shoot me down, you've done no crime
It's all a pecking order, that we all must shoulder
Watch your shadow fill a space, in spite of all that falls from grace
The circle's spinning, the new's beginning


Holding Court

Like a string around my finger you remind me
Of what it is to breathe
When all is lost and all seems hopeless
You breathe your life to me
I'm a crier I'm a liar
You've seen the last of me
You're a winner still a sinner
But you're better than can be

I swear I'm over you
I'm doing what you told me to
In order to forget you
In order to regret you

Pay your way, come what may, we'll see the day
When I don't need you
I'm walking blind, No way to find, If you are mine
When I still want you

Like a rope around my neck I'm running circles
Around the thought of you
'Cause all is lost and all seems hopeless
In my manic point of view


Balance

Take your turn to lean on me
I've leaned on you for so long
Your words hide behind your age
My words they sing you this song

And I fall from this tightrope
That you've walked a thousand times
One step over two steps
You're wise beyond your eyes

Walk away its your time
Deny the tear in my eye
Your memory will never die
Your memory will never die

At peace I trust in you every step of the way
To stay with me til the end of the day
So move on to your tomorrow as we all say goodnight
Cause you're my sense of balance for the rest of my life

Now I'm waiting on the words that
I've never had the chance to tell
So this is my I love you
This is my Fare thee well

Walk away its your time
Deny the tear in my eye
Your memory will never die
Your memory will never die

At peace I trust in you every step of the way
To stay with me til the end of the day
So move on to your tomorrow as we all say goodnight
Cause you're my sense of balance for the rest of my life


Whipped

I swear I've seen it all before
I swear this vice that you adore, will be your end
My words are falling on deaf ears
As they always have for far too many years

You) deviate from what you are
You compensate for each and every scar
You can't control your self-perception
In spite of all this misdirection

Why can't you see
That everything you're chasing is just nothing but a fallacy
You seem a blind to be
With all you disregard, you're showing every card
Of who you are
It's over when it's over, there is no four-leaf clover
Try again

I swear I'm feeling this again
I swear I can't seem to begin a thought process
My words are jumbled in my mind
I wish that there was some way to push rewind

I deviate from what I am
I compensate for each and every man
I can't control my self-perception
In spite of all my indiscretion

Why can't you see
That everything you're chasing is just nothing but a fallacy
You seem a blind to be
With all you disregard, you're showing every card
Of who you are
It's over when it's over, there is no four-leaf clover
Try again

Why can't you see
That everything you're chasing is just nothing but a fallacy
You seem a blind to be
With all you disregard, you're showing every card
Of who you are
It's over when it's over, there is no four-leaf clover
Try again


Under Fire

Self-Revelation hits me like a brick
Its four AM
Sleeps out of the question when youre stuck inside the state I'm in
Where everything I see is redundancy
I'm at wits end
Over you

Middle fingers in the air they're waiving at me
No barricade to call my own
So let the stones fly but one last request
Will you carry me
Home

I'm seeing clearly with my eyes closed tight
I'm seeing clearly In spite of everything thats wrong or right
I walk on eggshells and broken glass
On my hands and knees
Open wounds

Middle fingers in the air they're waiving at me
No barricade to call my own
So let the stones fly but one last request
Will you carry me
Home

Middle fingers in the air they're waiving at me
No barricade to call my own
So let the stones fly but one last request
Will you carry me
Will you carry me
Will you bury me



Incarcerate

So much for being alone
Cold peace on my own
I'll cut my skin to show you I'm alive
A king on high-volt throne
The world is ours to own
Our ashes are so divine

I'll swim in you if you're drowning me
We'll search everywhere for a happy ending
Incarcerate, rest peacefully
Where you are

Can you remember me
With all that I can see
A hole in my head because you were mine
Like a closed book you can read brings back those memories
On how everything looks outside

I'll swim in you if you're drowning me
We'll search everywhere for a happy ending
Incarcerate, rest peacefully
Where you are
Incarcerate
Incarcerate

I'll swim in you if you're drowning me
We'll search everywhere for a happy ending
Incarcerate, rest peacefully
Where you are


Unlucky

No fools eye to recognize
Where growth is preferred my growth is deterred
If I could find an alibi then I might find something good
No blood can be seen yet it still can be shed
Know these words that you speak are nails in my head

Here's the last words I'll write for you
From the start I'd lost step with you
Now you see you're far too unlucky for me

Where's the time go when walking blind
Wheres the love when you never mind
Seems to be that youre far too unlucky for me

A warning shot hits the air in the form of a child
How immense for another to raise one of its kind
No reason to scream seems its all in my head
Know these words that you speak now wash off with the dead

Here's the last words I'll write for you
From the start I'd lost step with you
Now you see you're far too unlucky for me

Where's the time go when walking blind
Wheres the love when you never mind
Seems to be that youre far too unlucky for me


Colors of a Bruise

Like a child, crayon in hand, you're out of line again
And your colors are untrue
You make the border disappear like it was never there
To justify the things you do

The red comes washing down
And this time there's no white to be found
I'm reaching out to you
To take your color

So grab your paintbrush now's the time to showcase your pain
And all inferiority
Your eyes they speak your eyes they meet
Everything and everyone
They feel your sense of jealousy

The red comes washing down
And this time there's no white to be found
I'm reaching out to you
To take your color

To try to take your color


On the Floor

True friends stab you in the front, you've got my throat
And all I know is on the floor
And as I watch my trust in you fall hopeless, I feel faint
But I'm still begging you for more

Devoted to you
Devoted to this
I stumble and I crumble beneath the weight that I bear
I'm struggling through
I'm struggling with my innocence
But I'm sure you wouldn't care

My god, it's been so long since I felt something so secure
As I walk on broken ground
I see the things that I have done to make me fall around your feet
Without making a sound

Devoted to you
Devoted to this
I stumble and I crumble beneath the weight that I bear
I'm struggling through
I'm struggling with my innocence
But I'm sure you wouldn't care

Devoted to you
Devoted to this
I stumble and I crumble beneath the weight that I bear
I'm struggling through
I'm struggling with my innocence
But I'm sure you wouldn't care

Devoted to you
Devoted to this
I stumble and I crumble beneath the weight that I bear
I'm struggling through
I'm struggling with my innocence
But I'm sure you wouldn't care
I'm sure you wouldn't care


The Finish Line

I've read all I need to
From the look on the mirror
It's getting much clearer to me
And others around
That I'm not who I say
But maybe just for today, I am

Perfection's not guaranteed
'Cause I don't know what I need
Work in progress, it seems
This is me

I'm not gonna stop you
From wanting much better
For needing to weather this storm
Of assurances broken
That' are swarming our senses
Breaking down our defenses again

Perfection's not guaranteed
'Cause I don't know what I need
Work in progress, it seems
This is me

Perfection's not guaranteed
'Cause I don't know what I need
Work in progress, it seems
This is me


Uncovered

She's grabbing hold of my eyes
Always in focus, but she doesn't know us
Her presence is felt in my bones
And her voice is present, oh, I feel it's hell-sent

So lay me down with the discontent
Redundancy that I represent
I try too hard to escape it all
That's why I'm praying for the fall

Her image is burning my eyes
With everything I say
To myself through the day
I can't find my comfort anymore
I'm losing dignity
It's all that's left of me

So lay me down with the discontent
Redundancy that I represent
I try too hard to escape it all
That's why I'm praying for the fall

So burn me down with the discontent
Redundancy that I represent
I try too hard to escape it all
That's why I'm praying for the fall

---

David Cook - Axium - Alive in Tulsa - Lyrics

Alive in Tulsa ~ Axium ~ 2/14/2004 (LIVE)





B a s t a r d Ass Yellow Light


AC

You must understand I’d take your place in a heartbeat
You can’t comprehend what watching you does to me
I cant comprehend the kinds of feelings inside of me
You must understand that this is all so new to me

Please know I love you and I miss you every way
I’m coming to grips with what you you deal with everyday
You’re always on my mind

I can’t seem to find my own sense of disregard
Lord knows I’m hurting for you
I feel so benign not having control of this
But I’m here through your malignancy

Please know I love you and I miss you every way
I’m coming to grips with what you you deal with everyday
You’re always on my mind

Please know I love you and I miss you every way
I’m coming to grips with what you you deal with everyday
You’re always on my mind

Please know I love you and I miss you every way
I’m coming to grips with what you you deal with everyday
You’re always on my mind

Clean Break

Watching, waiting for a sign from something else
to let me know that I'm not by myself.
Turning points and lonliness abound.
I'm better off not having you around.

I'm far too blind to see
the things you've done to me.
This time I've no regard.
Time to put up my guard.

Looking back on better days,
keep finding pieces of myself in yesterday.
Looking for another way
to break apart the sea of mediocrity.
Don't hold me down, keep me locked up from the things I long for
It's time you know
I'm holding back now
even though I don't know how
I ever let you go

Bleeding, forming scars in vain.
I'm finding no shelter from the never-ending rain.
I'm finding I don't know you, I don't know you.
But I, I'll pay you back in kind.

The shit has hit the fan.
Realize I'm not your man.
This time I've no regard
Time to put up your guard.

Looking back on better days
keep finding pieces of myself in yesterday.
Looking for another way
to break apart the sea of mediocrity, oh.
So hold me down, not any lock will keep me from the things I long for
It's time you know
I'm holding back now
although I don't know how
I ever let you go.


Feed Your Ego

This time you got the best of me
Lay me down right next to apathy
Cut
It's for better or for worse
It's both a blessing and a curse that feeds on me
So blind my eyes and feel no shame
Brush it off along with blame
And then call in

Hide behind your better reign
to keep inside your bitter pain
You don't like what I do
Well it's not about you.
So go on and feed your ego.

You bathe in sin you can't wash clean
Try to cash in what you can't redeem
Cut
It's for better or for worse
It's both a blessing and a curse that lives in me.
Say what you can to compensate
but there's nomone there to appreciate
But you don't bleed like I do.

Hide behind your better reign
To keep inside your, your bitter pain
You don't like what I do
Well it's not about you.
So go on and feed your ego.



Incarcerate

So much for being alone
Cold peace on my own
I'll cut my skin to show you I'm alive
A king on high-volt throne
The world is ours to own
Our ashes are so divine

I'll swim in you if you're drowning me
We'll search everywhere for a happy ending
Incarcerate, rest peacefully
Where you are

Can you remember me
With all that I can see
A hole in my head because you were mine
Like a closed book you can read brings back those memories
On how everything looks outside

I'll swim in you if you're drowning me
We'll search everywhere for a happy ending
Incarcerate, rest peacefully
Where you are
Incarcerate
Incarcerate

I'll swim in you if you're drowning me
We'll search everywhere for a happy ending
Incarcerate, rest peacefully
Where you are


Creep (Radiohead Cover)

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out the door
She's running out
She run run run run...
run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...


Thought You Knew

I'm on the other side, waiting and praying.
Can't see to justify, the things you keep saying.
Can't seem to understand the way that you hate.

But it's okay to say, that you don't feel that way
But stop lying and trying to prove yourself to me,
'cause I don't care.

I'm leaving this behind
in my six-fold solitude.
I'm drowning on the inside, say goodbye
to what you thought you knew.

I'm here to testify, for those who've been broken.
Live not a way to die, let dreams be awoken.
Take it from one who's been a martyr left alone.

But it's okay to say, that you don't feel that way
But stop lying and trying to grovel at my feet,
'cause I don't care, yeah yeah.

I'm leaving this behind
in my six-fold solitude, whoa oh yeah yeah.
I'm drowning on the inside, say goodbye
to what you thought you knew.

I'm leaving this behind.
I'm drowning on the inside, say goodbye
to what you thought you knew, yeah.


Truth is a Gun

Look at my hand,
manipulate to serve
what I feel like I deserve.
The basis is faulty,
and there's no place to rest my head,
so I wait in the depths instead.

I'm waiting to bleed
so I'll know that I am alive
and my patience is justified.
I can't get a grip
when there's nothing to hold on to
I need a separate point of view.

Truth is a gun
I'm aiming at everyone.
I'm driven by fear
it's no longer safe in here.
My message is clean
break off from who you've been.
You're shot in the head
another one dead.

So tell me your views
like I'm unable to oppose,
nothing legible to compose.
So take your win,
walk around with your head held high
but afraid it will pass you by.

I'm waiting to bleed
so I'll know that I am alive
and my actions are justified.
I can't get a grip
when there's nothing to hold on to,
but I know I'm better than you.

Truth is a gun
I'm aiming at everyone.
I'm driven by fear
it's no longer safe in here.
My message is clean
break off from who you've been.
You're shot in the head
another one dead,
another one dead
another one dead.

---

David Cook - Axium - Blindsided - Lyrics

Blindsided is the second album from Axium. Released in 2003, Feed Your ego is available for purchase on WallMart.






Feed Your Ego

This time you got the best of me
Lay me down right next to apathy
Cut
It's for better or for worse
It's both a blessing and a curse that feeds on me
So blind my eyes and feel no shame
Brush it off along with blame
And then call in

Hide behind your better reign
to keep inside your bitter pain
You don't like what I do
Well it's not about you.
So go on and feed your ego.

You bathe in sin you can't wash clean
Try to cash in what you can't redeem
Cut
It's for better or for worse
It's both a blessing and a curse that lives in me.
Say what you can to compensate
but there's nomone there to appreciate
But you don't bleed like I do.

Hide behind your better reign
To keep inside your, your bitter pain
You don't like what I do
Well it's not about you.
So go on and feed your ego.



Hold

Takes a number, stands in line
'cause he doesn't feel like himself
And he's always played though off there were
Just cared for his sense of self
He plays on in spite of everything
Disillusioned by his right.
What makes it all go away
When you can't put up a fight, can't put up a fight?

Oh, but it's okay to breathe
Your worries away
When everything and everyone try to lead you astray.
Hold your own, hold your ground,
Hold to life when you're down,
And always believe that there's a way back home.

She's waiting on the answer,
A way to let them know.
The thought of someone else inside her,
And the fear began to grow.
Warm tears feed dry hands
As she falls to the ground.
It's strange how sadness presents itself
When there's noone around, there's noone around.

Oh, but it's okay to breathe
Your worries away
When everything and everyone try to lead you astray.
Hold your own, hold your ground,
Hold to life when you're down,
And always believe that there's a way back home.

Oh, but it's okay to breathe
Your worries away
When everything and everyone try to lead you astray.
Hold your own, hold your ground,
Hold to life when you're down,
And always believe that there's a way back home.

Won't you hold your ground,
Hold to life when you're down
(A way back home)
And always believe that there's a way back home
(A way back home)
Hold your ground, hold to life when you're down
(Oh, you're down)
And always believe that there's a way back home.
(hold your ground)
A way back home


Testament

My only way
Day after day
Can't find my inspiration
Settle for consolation
I'm wasting away.
The sky begins to fade
and I wish that I was made
to stand against the wind
as if it were my friend
I feel betrayed

Please hold to what you know
'cause I just can't seem to tell you how I feel
And I feel something in my soul
that tells me this is real.

And I know I can't explain
why the pleasure feels like pain.
Try to hide, try to subside
everything I feel inside.

Please hold to what you know
'cause I just can't seem to tell you how I feel
And I feel something in my soul
that tells me this is real.

Please hold to what you know
'cause I just can't seem to tell you how I feel, yeah.
I feel something in my soul
that tells me this is real.
It's real.


Thought You Knew

I'm on the other side, waiting and praying.
Can't see to justify, the things you keep saying.
Can't seem to understand the way that you hate.

But it's okay to say, that you don't feel that way
But stop lying and trying to prove yourself to me,
'cause I don't care.

I'm leaving this behind
in my six-fold solitude.
I'm drowning on the inside, say goodbye
to what you thought you knew.

I'm here to testify, for those who've been broken.
Live not a way to die, let dreams be awoken.
Take it from one who's been a martyr left alone.

But it's okay to say, that you don't feel that way
But stop lying and trying to grovel at my feet,
'cause I don't care, yeah yeah.

I'm leaving this behind
in my six-fold solitude, whoa oh yeah yeah.
I'm drowning on the inside, say goodbye
to what you thought you knew.

I'm leaving this behind.
I'm drowning on the inside, say goodbye
to what you thought you knew, yeah.



Clean Break

Watching, waiting for a sign from something else
to let me know that I'm not by myself.
Turning points and lonliness abound.
I'm better off not having you around.

I'm far too blind to see
the things you've done to me.
This time I've no regard.
Time to put up my guard.

Looking back on better days,
keep finding pieces of myself in yesterday.
Looking for another way
to break apart the sea of mediocrity.
Don't hold me down, keep me locked up from the things I long for
It's time you know
I'm holding back now
even though I don't know how
I ever let you go

Bleeding, forming scars in vain.
I'm finding no shelter from the never-ending rain.
I'm finding I don't know you, I don't know you.
But I, I'll pay you back in kind.

The shit has hit the fan.
Realize I'm not your man.
This time I've no regard
Time to put up your guard.

Looking back on better days
keep finding pieces of myself in yesterday.
Looking for another way
to break apart the sea of mediocrity, oh.
So hold me down, not any lock will keep me from the things I long for
It's time you know
I'm holding back now
although I don't know how
I ever let you go.



Just In Case

Life’s not what it used to be
I struggle to survive
Always short of everything
A failure in your eyes

To understand what’s in my head
Takes energy for two
That all we’ve known and all we’ve shown
What I really think of you

So hold me to the light
And watch me fade to white
And burn away

The souls are on your hands
Too late to make amends
You’ve chosen your way

You’ve heard it all before
And I won’t preach it anymore
That Life’s not made to waste

So do what you can to be
Be who you want to be
Just in case

Strangled now abandoned for
Defeat your sense of self
I spend my life to be your slave
Surrounded by myself

Too brash and young to comprehend
As to what it all engulfs
I see myself in black and white
Beaten down and old
Beaten down and old

So hold me to the light
And watch me fade to white
And burn away

The souls are on your hands
Too late to make amends
You’ve chosen your way

You’ve heard it all before
And I won’t preach it anymore
Life’s not made to waste

So do what you can to be
Be who you want to be
Just in case


Leave Behind

Seein’ all my mistakes etched in stone
Feelin’ all the layers of my soul
And I fill ‘em up
You stand beside me, a shadow of myself and I feel hollow
And I can’t swallow
No, it’s not fair
Nobody ever told me it would be this hard

Forgiving no more promises he’ll tell you no more lies
It’s not supposed to be this way

Reach your steady hand
Reach your promise land
You left without me
’Cuz I’m fallin’ far away
To fumble the light of day
And I cease to be
But take comfort in the fact
That I won’t be hanging on your back as you go forward
So say your prayers and say goodnight
Whether your wrong, whether your right
I know it’s hard
To be who you want to be

No time to sit and comprehend
I’ve made up my mind
To be a martyr for the cause
And I can’t pretend to mind
And you stand beside me an outline of myself and I feel okay
And I seem okay
Oh it’s not fair
Nobody ever told me this would never happen
And it happened once again
So go and lead your own life
And leave me to mine
I’m not prepared to die

Reach your steady hand
Reach your promise land
Oh it won’t help me
’Cuz I’m falling far away to walk the light of day and I cease to be
But take comfort in the fact
I won’t be hanging on your back as you go forward
So say your prayers and say goodnight
Whether your wrong, whether your right
I know it’s hard
To be who you want to be

Reach your promise land
Oh it won’t help me
’Cuz I’m falling far away to walk the light of day and I cease to be
But take comfort in the fact
I won’t be hanging on your back as you go forward
So say your prayers and say goodnight
Whether your wrong, whether your right
I know it’s hard
To be who you want to be (yeah)
To be who you want to be



Truth Is A Gun

Look at my hand,
manipulate to serve
what I feel like I deserve.
The basis is faulty,
and there's no place to rest my head,
so I wait in the depths instead.

I'm waiting to bleed
so I'll know that I am alive
and my patience is justified.
I can't get a grip
when there's nothing to hold on to
I need a separate point of view.

Truth is a gun
I'm aiming at everyone.
I'm driven by fear
it's no longer safe in here.
My message is clean
break off from who you've been.
You're shot in the head
another one dead.

So tell me your views
like I'm unable to oppose,
nothing legible to compose.
So take your win,
walk around with your head held high
but afraid it will pass you by.

I'm waiting to bleed
so I'll know that I am alive
and my actions are justified.
I can't get a grip
when there's nothing to hold on to,
but I know I'm better than you.

Truth is a gun
I'm aiming at everyone.
I'm driven by fear
it's no longer safe in here.
My message is clean
break off from who you've been.
You're shot in the head
another one dead,
another one dead
another one dead.



Therapy

I feel so lonely
No one to console me
Here as I sit amidst the wind
Eyes to see me
Not even I believe me and my thoughts are on the mend

The sun plays tricks on my eyes
Trying now to make my way through all the lies
Put on my face to fool you all
But I don’t have that far left to fall
It’s therapy for me
To wear my heart on my sleeve
It’s therapy for me
It’s therapy for me

But you can’t see this
You never been this, question everything you are
I come back stronger
Can’t help but remember
That it’s easy when it’s done being hard

The sun plays tricks on my eyes
Trying now to make my way through all the empty lies
Put on my face to fool you all
But I don’t have that far left to fall
It’s therapy for me (yeah)
To wear my heart on my sleeve (yeah)
It’s therapy for me (yeah)
It’s therapy for me (yeah)
Come back stronger
Can’t help but remember
That it’s easy when it’s done being hard…



Still

reflections in the waves of my eyes
my mind's a million shining seas
my life's grounded in the colours of the night
and i'm left answering your pleas.
and i'm still standing, waiting for you
and i'll keep on demanding
i'll let these feelings subdue
and i keep on living with my heart on my sleeve
cause i've seen enough
and i still believe.
inspiration escapes me
as i look into my dream
my hands are open for promise
i fall apart at the seam.
and i'm still standing,
waiting for you.
and i'll keep on demanding,
let these feelings subdue.
and i'll keep on living with my heart on my sleeve
cause i've seen enough,
and i still believe.
i'm tired of complaining,
i'm tired of restraining on you
feelings from you
i'll always live to be
the one who selflessly gave all my heart
if you only knew
and i'll keep on living with my heart on my sleeve.
and i know love,
and i still believe.

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David Cook - Axium - Matter of Time - Lyrics

David Cook was the lead singer of a band called Axium for several years. They've recorded an album in 2002 called "Matter of Time". Here are the track listing of the album, and lyrics for two songs - the songs from this first album are hard to come by!





Why Do you Care

And though I died before,
but I won't die any more to comfort you
and distort the view.
Are you afraid to cry?
Are you afraid to die for beliefs set in stone
and those thoughts that you can't condone?

Why do you care that I've been drowning?
Why do you care when everything I built goes tumbling down?
Why do you care that I've been bleeding, conceding, for being?
But in the end
Why do you care?

I cut my wrists for you
my pride left far and few
I gather all these lies
The how's, the what's and why's.
I feel it sinking in
It's time for sink or swim.
You hold on tight with all your might.

Why do you care that I've been drowning?
Why do you care when everything I built goes tumbling down?
Why do you care that I've been bleeding, conceding, for being?
But in the end
Why do you care?

It's all the same
I see no change
Well let me go
Well let me know.
I cry in vain
to drown the pain
I close my eyes
and I feel myself die.

Why do you care that I've been drowning?
Why do you care when everything I built goes tumbling down?
Why do you care that I've been bleeding, conceding, for being?
But in the end...why do you, why do you care?

Why do you care that I've been drowning
But in the end . . . . . why do you care?


Close Your Eyes

Bearing your thoughts, bearing my soul, I play the fool
Too afraid to take this all and face the ridicule
Try as you might, you can't fool me
The pain you hide seems so close to me.

And it's okay to close your eyes to see
and make believe you're happy for the world to see
I know you think there's nothing left to do,
but I'll come down to you,
and I'll come down to you.

Bury your face inside your hands, deny the tear
And try not to contemplate these innate fears
I just can't seem to do what's needed
and leave you lost and mistreated

And it's okay to close your eyes to see
and make believe you're happy for the world to see
I know you think there's nothing left to do,
but I'll come down to you,
and I'll come down to you.

I see the blame you feel
I know it seems so real
There's nothing left to do,
so I'll come down to you, down to you

And it's okay to close your eyes to see
To make believe you're happy for the world to see, yeah
I know you think there's nothing left to do,
but I'll come down to you, down to you

But I'll come down to you, down to you


Empty Again

The world falls down around me
Tales of faith and spirituality
My hands are worn from holding on
My eyes are numb from being gone
And now I know I swore I'd never let this bring me down.

I'm empty again
I lost control of my only friend
I live in colors of black and blue
And I live with this burden without you
Without you

I'm chained to the wall in pain
I've never been the one to die in vain.
My heart's on the line,
no conception of time
Reach out, close my eyes, and let this pass away.

I'm empty again
I've lost control of my only friend
I live in colors of black and blue
and I live with this burden, without you.

I'm empty again
I lost control of my only friend
I live in colors of black and blue
and I live with this burden



Matter of Time

Forseen changing
Played along
Lived a life by right and wrong.
You've always been the one to say
that we would never even see this day.

We'll fight for what we believe
and we'll strive to live and achieve
and to be everything in mind
it's only a matter of time.

It's been a while
we're still here.
How quickly we rose
to claim this fear.
We're standing tall and we're standing strong
In the light, right where we belong.

We'll fight for what we believe
and we'll strive to live and achieve
and to be everything in mind
it's only a matter of time.

We'll fight for what we believe
and we'll strive to live and achieve
and to be everything in mind
it's only a matter of time.

It's only a matter of time.


Me

My days are slowly counting down till I can breathe no more.
These shallow reservations leave my soul so sore.
Hold on and see the way, the way that I fall.
I part my stairway to hell
This lie seems so old.

Crawl through the doorway to my life and take a look around
Feel it holding all my pain and strife as you beat me to the ground
My days are stranded inside me, and I can't break free
I guess it's all in a day's lie for what's left of me.

Too many times I've fallen, too many times I've cried
Left all my thoughts to wander, left all my peace to die
My heart's a million pieces, all spread upon the ground
My eyes saw an empty painting
Quiet, there's no sound

Crawl through the doorway to my life and take a look around
Feel it holding all my pain and strife as you beat me to the ground
My days are stranded inside me, and I can't break free
I guess it's all in a day's lie for what's left of me.

I've got no destination
I'm sick of alienation
Please God, no defamation

Crawl through the doorway to my life and take a look around
Feel it holding all my pain and strife as you beat me to the ground
My days are stranded inside me, and I can't break free
I guess it's all in a day's lie for what's left of me.

For what's left of me.


Change

Help me find myself, 'cause I'm losing my mind
No sense of reason, no recollection of time
I reach for a purpose, and I'm met with no way
To find what possesses the things I can't say to you.

Try again, don't falter now
My eyes start to change
And it all stays the same

Let it go again, please say you will
Let it go again, swallow the pill
Let it go again, I've tried to live on
But in the end, it's all a trend, and life goes on.

I keep pressing on, looking for the light
You can't look me in the eye even though you're right
A taint of injustice everywhere I go
Not for what I am, but for what you don't even know.

Try again, don't falter now
My eyes start to change
And it all stays the same

Let it go again, please say you will
Let it go again, swallow the pill
Let it go again, I've tried to live on
But in the end, it's all a trend, and life goes on.

Let it go again, please say you will
Let it go again, swallow the pill
Let it go again, I've tried to live on
But in the end, it's all a trend, and life goes on.


No Free Advice

Always saying I ain't good enough
Never knowing why my life's so rough
Always concerned with superficial ways
I'm here to tell you that these are the end of days

Rain keeps coming down as it shadows out the sun
It's coming closer now, you're anything but done, yeah.

I'm so sick of being misused, unused, reused
Can't take no more being misled, unfed, abused
Don't tell me what you feel
Misinterpret my will
Can't handle the falling of the rain.

It keeps coming fast and strong
No remorse shown for what's right or wrong
Make no statement to decree
Because it, it knows that, that you're never free

Rain keeps coming down as it shadows out the sun
It's coming closer now, you're anything but done, yeah.

I'm so sick of being misused, unused, reused
Can't take no more being misled, unfed, abused
Don't tell me what you feel
Misinterpret my will
Can't handle the falling of the rain.

I'm so sick of being misused, unused, reused
Can't take no more being misled, unfed, abused
Don't tell me what you feel
Misinterpret my will
Can't handle the falling of the rain.



No Place To Go

Too many thoughts consume the things I say and do
Too many times have changed
When all you've known is left to die amidst the sun
Your life's been rearranged.

That's when you say under your breath all those things best left unsaid
and your morals start to fade.
You run on empty through the fold, shedding your beliefs
You're living this charade.

(chorus) You lie inside your head, pondering what life holds for you
You hold your soul up to the light as the sun changes you
Too many times left standing against what faith can do
This time I think I know
You stand here forever, with no place to go.

You say that life's been nothing but a state of mind
and nothing but a point in time
You're left to watch us all surround you
Live life while you're confined.

Jealousy and envy crawl beneath your skin
and your heart begins to die
You're beaten, swollen, aching
An eye for an eye, yeah.

(chorus) (chorus) You stand here forever.


Somber

Inside I'm empty and outside I'm numb,
and I keep on waiting for the pain to succumb.
Inside I'm lonely, outside I'm alone
as the world falls apart in the end.

It fucks my body and thoughts cloud my mind.
Can't shake these cobwebs that I find, yeah.
The darkness flutters around my head.
Sometimes, I wonder if I'm dead.

I'm breaking down as you're breaking out.
Can't seem to conquer what life's all about.
In the end I'll fall right before your eyes,
your cries, your lies, I die somber.

I hope you're happy with what you've done.
You've burned all bridges, how's the power of one?
I hear your heartbeat as you walk on by.
I see inside you on this final goodbye.

It fucks my body and thoughts cloud my mind.
Can't shake these cobwebs that I find, yeah.
The darkness flutters around my head.
Sometimes, I wonder if I'm dead.

I'm breaking down as you're breaking out.
Can't seem to conquer what life's all about.
In the end I'll fall right before your eyes,
your cries, your lies, I die somber.

Seems life has changed
Time to do without
I'm gonna check myself before
I check out, yeah.

I'm breaking down as you're breaking out.
Can't seem to conquer what life's all about.
In the end I'll fall right before your eyes,
your cries, your lies, I die somber.

I'm breaking down as you're breaking out.
Can't seem to conquer what life's all about.
In the end I'll fall right before your eyes,
your cries, your lies, I die somber.

Somber, yeah.



Peace of Mind

With life on hold
Say goodbye to old habits of circumstance
The way you know me
Seems to show me why I'm glad that we took this chance

I've fallen short of grace
Each time I see your face you make me feel so free
But I can't comprise
And I won't compromise all you've done for me

I know it seems like a dream
Please, God, don't take this away from me
The way you love me all the same
I'm amazed at who you are
This moment in my life
It's like I've never loved before
The way you show me with a kiss
How much you care
You are love
You are life
You are peace of mind

The way you love me all the same
I'm amazed at who you are
This moment in my life
It's like I've never loved before
The way you show me with a kiss
How much you care
You are love
You are life
You are love
You are life
You are love
You are life
To me you're peace of mind

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